POST PART HIM ( PPH)
This is an appropriate day to start my Blog- Mother’s Day. It has been 13 years since I made the decision to end my marriage and begin this PPH stage of my life. I knew the divorced life was going to have it’s challenges. I knew it would take time for us all to adjust. What I did not expect was to take on the challenge of parenting… myself! It is a difficult enough job for two people (with a vested interest) to do successfully, let alone doing it myself. Parenting comes with tears, fears, fights, sleepless nights. But it also comes with an understanding of unconditional love. The pride you feel when your children reach goals and succeed cannot be described. Something as simple as their first step to seeing them score a winning hockey goal makes your heart swell. It is just pure joy. Today, I could not be more proud of my 2 children. I am a fulfilled mother (and father).
My children gave me a reason to go on, to succeed and to be strong. I have two independent, free-spirited adults. Do they still need me? Yes, I know that. But, they have been my muses in life. I have achieved what I set out to do. Now what? Where do I go from here? This blog will be my discovery of myself. I cannot say I am lost, but my focus is shifting from them to me. Like so many single mothers, (and single fathers) we reach our 50’s and wake up with self-sufficient children.